That’s right! The past semester is my worst in all aspects of life, except for one (maybe). This post may be offensive(?) to others, so I’m warning you not to read this if you know me as a good person.

So what are my reasons for saying that it was my worst sem? See this list:

1. Lowest General Weighted Average (GWA)!! It may seem arrogant or “mahangin,” but my GWA, which I will not put here, is too low for my own standards. As usual, I’m pissed with myself because I know that I could have done better. But as we all know, “nasa huli ang pagsisisi.”

2. No Magna Cum Laude standing anymore. This is a reward for attaining the first thing in the list. Now, I just need to concentrate with my last two years to at least, graduate on time, not on time as in some time, but on time as scheduled.

3. Got rejected by the Instrumentations, Robotics and Control (IRC) Laboratory. I really didn’t expect that I’ll get in but still, it’s depressing. I mean, most of my friends and classmates in the institute are already probationary members of other laboratories. Some of them even had the opportunity to choose between two laboratories since they’ve been accepted in both labs. I know it’s bad but I just can’t help myself to ask if I’m not that good enough. What do they have that I don’t have? What can they do that I can’t do? Life is so unfair, isn’t it?

4. Decided to informally leave the Computer Networks Laboratory (CNL). I left CNL because I wanted to join IRC. But now that IRC rejected me, some of my friends are telling me to stick with CNL. I think I can do that only if I am brave enough. I can’t even stay on the second floor because CNL is there. I’ve finished nothing. I’ve done nothing. I’ve accomplished nothing. Then I’ll return? Ha! I don’t think I can do it. I’ll melt in embarrassment. Actually, joining IRC is not the only reason for leaving CNL. As of now, I’m still undecided with my career in this field, and that’s one of the reasons.

5. Org stuff. I got involved in petty issues in the organization where I’m in. I know that it’s normal for such groups to have misunderstandings or whatever. But blah blah blah blah blah! Haha! Can’t post here, but if you’re interested, I can tell you, only if you are a friend. Take note, a friend. I can’t post it since it may bring back those things and make new issues and stuff. Anyway, I’ve already shelved it somewhere out there where I can’t reach it, and I don’t want to reach it for my sanity’s sake. :-/

6. Health. My friends Kian and Patrick separately told me that I’m always sick when there’s an exam. And remembering my sem, I found it to be true. Yeah, I know the reasons. And my father will repeat and repeat it for me if he wants to. First, lack of exercise. Second, skipping meals. Third, lack of sleep or irregularity of sleeping pattern. The bottomline, discipline. I’ve been saying this for ages, and yet nothing had changed. :-/

Hmmmmm. That’s all, I think. Wait, I’ve said earlier that except for one. That aspect is my social aspect. Really, this sem is a social sem. Eh, what? Well, I’ve met a lot of new people by applying in the DilNet Helpdesk, and by being a volunteer of UP Fair. I’ve also started to know and mingle with other EEE people. I’ve known new friends in my field. And last but not the least, I’ve felt this weird feeling that I think, I’ve been longing for. This weird feeling that makes you forget your worries. This feeling that makes you happy. ^^, That’s all for now. My plan is to make this a rant post but it turns out to be somehow an inspiration post. <3

Peace, love and success, RIX. ^_^